This Is Average

Sometimes we need to put ourselves first, do something that may be frowned upon by others but satisfies our needs in the moment. I think we all get too preoccupied by what others will think rather than what we want. So ayooo thats what I took advantage of this beautiful colorado night. Suck my dick if you don’t like it.

Longest. Week. Ever.

Most. Pointless. Week. Ever.

Fuck. I’m. Fucking. Tired.

Hurry. Spring. Break.

March

So this is March. Hello drunken filled spring break adventures and those last few months of school that unfortunately will never truly end. A few days ago ending this whole thing we call life sounded like a wonderful idea, like absently piroutting in space. But then the harsh reality sets in. How to do it. When to do it. Where to do it. And oh shit what will happen after I do it. If suicide was just a thought I strongly believe the worlds population would be cut in half. It is once those thoughts keep creeping up behind every bad event like a Dog waiting for you to turn away so he can snatch the piece of meat on the counter. It lingers and never goes away until you face it head on and comply or choose to defy it. I don’t know what is keeping me here anymore. Just as in March the weather seems to drastically change and things don’t seem as they used to. My friends will soon be spreading out from coast to coast, parents only seem to get worse as we get older, school will never end so might as well cut it short. I love my work environment but those hold only work relationships and I definitely can’t use work as an escape every day. Everything seems to be slipping away so sometimes it is easier to let it all go for good.